It's not okay that everything fell apart. It's not okay that when the times of loneliness come, neither of us can't even seek comfort from each other. Then the times we all actually spend time together, it's as if we know nothing about one another. The sound of silence, the feeling of awkwardness. I feel so many negative emotions at the same time, that I don't even know what to feel anymore. Sure things change. But out of all the things I expected to change.. "Us" was the least thing I expected to change. There's no use in denying about what's happening because it's so clear.. We all aren't the same people we use to be.

It's funny how one situation can lead into another and then end up ruining everything in the end. There's so much to say - at the same time so little. I don't know where to begin.. But i'll start with 4 words.. " I miss you guys .... "

... Best friends for what ?

Always, Ners.

No lies. Precalculus is giving me the largest migrane in the world :(. I don't like factorial notation very much! I hate it with a passion. I don't like how I only somewhat get it. It makes no sense to me how I'm able to get one answer and then when I attempt to do the samething for the other.. It doesn't work! Omge. If it were possible I would have burned precalculus a long time ago!

1.) PINK
2.) pink blackberry curve
3.) stuff toys
4.) shutting everyone out with LOUD music
5.) my room
6.) sleeping!
7.) sweats & hoodies <3
8.) FAMILY! & friends.
9.) asian dramas
10.) random quotes

Infatuation: Temporary love of an adolescent
Love: ........ ?

Love... What is it?
How do you know the difference of being in love and infatuation? Love isn't just explained in one way because people love differently. Is it even possible to describe love in words? Honestly, I'm not all too sure of the answer but I think when love finds you, you'll just know that it's love..

.... * FRANCHESKA; I miss you!!!

You never really learn anything until you've actually failed. Failure smacked me on the face plenty of times but I knew I had to eventually have the courage to get back up and move on. Life's filled with plenty of surprises. We can't run from our problems, no matter how fast we go or how busy we try to get.. The things I've lost in life were only replaced with better things, sure it's going to take a little getting use too. But I wouldn't have it any other way..

MY HANGOVER IS STILL HERE. I still feel sick like a mofo. Someone fix me.. Lol. Anyway, I'm bored. I haven't posted an entry for a quite a bit. So, here I am. Cheska, I miss you. Why don't you ever text me back anymore! I'm going to spam you and you'll get so irritated that you will have to text me back eventually! K ENOUGH. This computer is making me feel dizzy -_-".

I can't believe it has been a year since you've been gone Tita.. Seems like it was just yesterday we were all in your room making those elastic band necklaces, or watching movies.. So many things had happened this past year with all of us. We miss you a lot..

Finally saw Cheska after three years! Fortunately, she is still the same crazy girl I met. But in her opinion, I've supposedly become "cheesier". I think not! So sad that you only could stay for a week :(. You better come back in October, I even told your mother so too bad. Anyway, finally watched "He's Just Not That Into You". AWESOME MOVIE. It is officially added to my favourites! Sweet deals! And Isay, you loved my remarks.. YOU KNOW IT. And Rica, you're a bastard for being lazy and not waking up :(. The ASOUE--ADDICTS were not complete. We even took a picture, which is going to be captioned as "ASOUE--ADDICTS INCOMPLETE VERSION". Wahwah. It's pretty late though. Need to get ready for bed. I absolutely loved today ♥. Good night! // best friend: hands down, i got you, thick or thin. no doubt.

PS: SOMEONE HELP ME FIND A SECOND JOB! NEED FLOOOOW! DAMN.

Today wasn't the same as any other day. Today, I realized so much shit. From life itself, to school, to friends, and even relationships. Life's filled with infinite lessons. One day you may feel like you've learned every lesson possible, then come another day.. There's a whole new set of lessons to be learned. I guess that's how life works. You continiously make mistakes, and you learn from them all.

Through all the mistakes and problems you go through, you also find out who's still down to stick around or not. You realize who your true friends are. The people who are willing to stick around no matter how many times you mess up in life. When you find those people, don't let them go. Friends like those are hard to find, so cherish them. And never take them for granted..

it's not the amount of breathes you take, but the moments that take your breathe away..

So, my weekend literally consisted of sleep, sleep, and more sleep. Plus, eating, the computer, and my cellular device. Except yesterday, last minute plans with Rose and Ren. We were orginally suppose to watch "He's just not that into you" but unfortunately, after we bought the tickets and got into the movie, it was packed! So, we ended up exchanging our tickets for "Miss March". At the beginning of the movie, I was honestly so confused.. At that moment I was thinking that we were watching "He's just not that into you" and then I finallly remembered that we exchanged our tickets to "Miss March". My "short term memory loss" sure loves to kick in a lot. Anyway, that would be all for today..

[ EXCLAIMATION ]: CHESKA'S BACK IN WINNIPEG :) but sadly, only for a week :(. This honestly calls for an ASOUE--ADDICTS REUNION. Sweet deals! Cariza, Florence, Rica, and Cheska make sure you girls are available on Thursday because I will be so disappointed if we don't have a get together before Cheska leaves again! Since I'm pretty sure the last time we all chilled was about two years ago!

( For my benefit )

Our lives are made to have bumps and bruises along the way because without them, our lives will only be nothing but smooth and easy all the way. There is someone or something out there representing all the reasons to why we should fight to live. So, learn to appreciate what you have now because nothing lasts forever, and forget about the past because I'm sure as hell that they're done with you. Just remember, nothing wonderful comes easy.